Three things are more important to me than anything else: family, baking, and fun. So when I saw Keller Cannon, drummer of LP-45, perform at a charity concert, I knew he’d be the perfect guy to have heaps of fun with.
It was temporary. No strings attached. A pretty damn perfect arrangement if you ask me.
Until it wasn’t. Until being with him highlighted just what I was missing.
But having more wasn’t an option.
He made that perfectly clear.
Music is my escape. When I’m behind my drums, I’m granted temporary respite from my demons and a small reprieve I don’t deserve.
Maddie is a distraction I can’t afford and crave at the same time. I drown in her and she breathes life into me. She offers peace–the comfort and promise of a life free from the torment. But I don’t deserve her. And I can’t need her like I do.
I just can’t.